October 15th is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day. It’s important to me to recognize this day, because there was a time in my life where I felt completely alone…like my world had stopped and everyone had continued on around me. After a completely normal, uneventful, and blissfully ignorant first pregnancy I was expecting our second baby. We were beyond excited to give our son a sibling, then later devastated by a late first trimester miscarriage. Before that, I really hadn’t thought about pregnancy loss at all. I didn’t know anyone who had lost a baby, and definitely didn’t expect it to happen to me after my first pregnancy went so smoothly. After a few months I was expecting again, but sadly experienced a second miscarriage late in the first trimester. Then a month after that, just days before my appointment to meet with a reproductive endocrinologist for testing, I found out I was pregnant again. Thanks to that specialist and the grace of God, we had a healthy baby girl the next summer.
A baby that comes after a loss is called a Rainbow Baby. Beauty after a storm. Color and light after darkness. A promise after a trial.
Scarlett is my Rainbow Baby. She’s sweet, silly, and so very loving. She’s sensitive and girly. She loves ponies and anything sparkly. She’s special, and I don’t know what I’d do without her. I thank God for her and for all three of my children every day. I didn’t understand what a miracle it was to have a baby until I realized that the journey isn’t always easy.
It wasn’t until after Scarlett was born that I learned I wasn’t alone…I actually had quite a few friends who had experienced a loss, I just didn’t know it because it’s not something people often talk about. So to everyone on that journey, you’re not alone. I wish you love and peace, and I hope a rainbow soon comes to you.
Despite her mama’s efforts to turn her, Aubrie refused to flip out of breech position. I was preparing to shoot the scheduled c-section the following week, but was caught off guard by my phone ringing while I was at Rodeo Day for my son’s school. Aubrie decided to pick her own birthday, so off to the hospital I went! I was heartbroken that I wasn’t allowed into the OR because we later found out that the doctor was fine with it…but even if you can’t go into the OR, there are so many things you can capture for a family before and after! Thank you to Aubrie’s parents for allowing me to be there for her birth!
Some friends of mine were expecting a precious baby girl earlier this year. We did some in-studio belly shots and some outdoor shots, and these were a few of my favorites!
Last year I got to see this sweet little guy enter the world. It’s amazing how quickly a year passes, especially that first year in a baby’s life. It was so much fun to see him a year later and see how much he had grown, and I’m honored his family asked me to capture some first birthday images for them.
Happy Birthday, Isaac!
So I’ll admit…I haven’t exactly gotten this whole mom of three thing down yet. When the baby was six weeks old, my son started Kindergarten and my daughter started preschool a couple days a week. Between his homework, her little projects she needs to bring in, and the baby attached to my hip I haven’t quite been the most organized person for the last seven months!
I found some really cute Valentine’s ideas on Pinterest for the kids to take to their classmates, but of course being unorganized I didn’t plan enough in advance to get any of those cute ideas done. This past weekend was super busy and we didn’t have time to go to the store in search of store-bought Valentines. Then comes Monday morning, and it’s pouring down rain and freezing cold. Of course my procrastination led to me being forced to go out in that yucky weather the day before Valentine’s Day to get my kids something for their parties.
Thankfully Pinterest and my random stash of crafting supplies ended up coming through for me. Although I didn’t have time to do the more involved ideas I had saved, I was able to help the kids do these simple Valentines.
It’s just a toilet paper tube bent into the shape of a heart and used like a stamp. Everyone has one of those laying around! I didn’t even have to let my three year old unroll one all over the house, there was an empty one waiting on the holder for me….because you know no one replaces those things. Ha! I tried to get her to stamp hearts all over in pink and red, but her idea was apparently to meticulously stamp three pink hearts across each card.
Here is the info on how to make a heart stamp out of toilet paper tube – heart stamps from Rust & Sunshine
Maybe the stores do have it right when they start putting the Valentine’s stuff out before Christmas! Next year I’ll aim to plan ahead a little better, but the kids had a lot of fun making these, signing their names, and taping a lollipop to it. Happy Valentine’s Day everyone!
Even though we are 6 days in, I was kind of shocked today when I realized I needed to add a Photography 2012 folder to my computer. The last year went by so quickly…but I guess that’s what happens when you’re pregnant, have a baby, your oldest starts Kindergarten, and your middle starts preschool. 2011 was a wonderful year full of memories I’ll treasure forever. I didn’t take a lot of clients because of being pregnant and having a newborn, but in 2012 I’ll be easing back into things.
Here are a few of my favorite personal images from 2011. I’m wishing everyone a beautiful and blessed 2012!
Twelve weeks tomorrow, three months to the day next week….however you like to figure it at this point, my baby girl is three months old already. How is it possible that time can pass so quickly? It seems like with each child it moves faster, and knowing Abigail is my last baby makes watching her grow so very bittersweet. I love that she’s starting to grab things and pull them to her, that she’s smiling constantly and starting to laugh. At the same time I enjoy seeing another one of my children go through all these milestones I know it’s the last time I will get to experience the magic of watching a baby learn to do something new.
As a mom, we don’t often like to be in pictures…our hair isn’t perfect, no time for makeup most days, and whatever shirt we’re wearing probably isn’t a favorite just in case we get spit up on or touched with mac and cheese covered hands. As a mom and a photographer, it’s very rare that I am in a picture! Not only am I usually not feeling picture-worthy, but I’m always behind the camera and not in front of it.
I’ve made a promise to myself that I WILL be in more pictures. I want to remember what I looked like when I held my baby…what it looked like when she smiled at me because I was the thing she needed and loved most in the world at that moment. These times are so precious, and they pass so quickly. I’m thankful for photography and the ability to capture the smallest of moments. If you’re like me and you don’t often get in front of the camera with your kiddos, take a minute to do it soon! Years from now you won’t see the things you see now…you’ll just see you, your babies (no matter how old they are!) and a lot of love.
My stubborn little girl decided to be late. 11 days late to be exact! She was a big baby, too…8 pounds 14 ounces. I think her being late combined with her being big made those typical squishy sleepy newborn pictures impossible. I have a lot of awake shots of Miss Abby’s sweet face, and that’s not a bad thing! We’re enjoying these first precious weeks with our blessing. I didn’t know if we would have a third baby, but she’s here now and I feel like we are complete.
I will be forever grateful that I was able to have my friend and backup birth photographer Nicki of Nicole Noelle Photography there to capture Abby’s birth. She is an amazing photographer, and I can’t even begin to describe how happy I am that I finally got to have one of my births photographed. The fact that I was able to have my friend Nicki there made it even more special! Please go to her blog to see her post featuring Abby’s birth.
houstonbirthphotographer.com – Photographing the Photographer
I mentioned before that I have a favorite thing to do with maternity sessions…I love using ultrasound pictures in maternity photos. I enlisted the help of my son to get one of my own, and it only took a TINY bit of bribery! So here is my favorite maternity pose on myself, courtesy of my 5 year old. He says he’s now a photographer, too.
Baby Abigail will be here any day now, and we’re so excited to meet her! Stay tuned for lots of newborn pictures!
About a month after the last birth, I got to be present for another amazing water birth at Nativiti Birth Center. Baby Isaac’s mama was strong and beautiful as she brought her baby boy into the world. I’m grateful for each time I get to capture the birth of a baby…many thanks to Baby Isaac’s family for asking me to be there!